"Oh? You don’t have to do all that for me.." Carelessly chuckling over her wanting him to be happy where they went, reality was he was happy just being with her. He had been living wherever she needed him for so long now, that it didn’t seem that much of a different.
Looking closer at the brochure in his hand, he did notice how much country-side this region they were looking at, had. It was.. Kind of nice. Unova was bustling with so many cities, there wasn’t much country-side, or interest in it.
"I think……. I like this one."
"Kalos, huh?" Bianca lightly took the brochure and glanced over it herself. "I haven’t heard much about it, there’s a lot of pokemon there that even the Professor hasn’t researched yet."
The thought of researching pokemon that her mentor had not gotten a chance to excited her even further. Pulling at one of the larger books she had brought home, she found the one labeled Kalos and opened it up, flipping pages until she saw a picture like that in the pamplet. ”It is pretty there, isn’t it?”
"Did you now?" Brow raising at her quick jump to leaving — despite understanding why she was doing it. They both needed out of Unova, there was no place left here for them. "It’s fine.. Really." Giving a twitch of a smile towards her, and leaning to softly peck her cheek. It was a wonderful feeling to see her be so excitable and happy again. With the lack of interaction they had, had for so long, he really hadn’t expect to ever see that smile again.
Staring at the brochure she had picked up, his body shifting to lean a bit to look down at it. Curious as to what this place would be like — seems like they had an awful lot of searching to do. .. On top of packing afterwards. “Wherever we pick, I want us to have enough room so you can do all sorts of studies.”
After the kiss, Bianca laid her head down on his shoulder, losing herself in the moment they had. ”I’m glad…” She gave a sigh of contentment. There were a few minutes of silence before she let her attention be grabbed back by the brochures and books.
"I want wherever we go to have choices…so you can do whatever you want to do." She nuzzled into his shoulder, giving a soft hum. Bianca wasn’t sure exactally what Hue wanted to do, but she knew she wanted him to have choices…whether he wanted to start up a mareep farm again or study to be a police officer…or both…
Waking up the following morning was incredibly different — that fire in his heart was definitely burning again. Even if Bianca wasn’t beside him in the bed — which she never really was — Hue already knew the fact that they were off to a better start than previously.
Once he was up and dressed, the blunet wandered down the stairs, only to find Bianca sitting on the couch — the table full of all sorts of papers and the like. His lips pursing in confusion over the pile, but overhearing the words that the blonde had spoken towards Stoutland, he easily figured out what they were for.
Plopping down next to her, an arm reaching to wrap around Bianca’s shoulder and pull her into a side-hug. “So, what all do we have here?”
She instantly leaned into the touch, wrapping an arm around Hue to return the hug. Things were defiantly different. All it took was that little push she gave last night. Just the smallest change in both of them and they were back on track to being happy again.
"I hope you don’t mind…I decided to start looking at places to go." It was a quick decision, but the sooner she was out of this poisonous place, the better. "I…I know it’s soon…but…" It was hard to put a finger on her emotions. Emotions had left her for so long, she couldn’t quite place them anymore. "…I’m excited."
She picked up one of the brochures with her free hand, the other still wrapped around Hue, and looked at it. ”I want to pick someplace perfect, where both of us can be happy.”
For the first time in forever, she felt emotions. While happiness still felt like a far off thing, she felt a small smile tugging at her face. Hue agreed. Hopefully he wouldn’t take it back, but Hue had agreed to leave.
To go someplace new for them to start their lives over. She dropped an armload of books and brochures onto the table containing information of different regions and cities they could move to. She was looking for something quiet, yet where Hue could do anything he wanted, like start a new Mareep farm or become a police officer—whatever he decided to do.
They were starting over together after all. He should be a major part of deciding where they go. All she wanted was a place she could travel in peace and study wild Pokemon in their natural habitat.
Stoutland sat beside her, confused at the sudden change in his trainer, but nonetheless happy for this release of emotions from her.
"We’re going to move, Stouty. We’re going to go far away from here. Me and Hue. Together. With you of course." She patted the dog’s head before sitting at the table with all of her books and beginning to read the books as if she were still studying for her exams.
Everything had to be perfect. She wanted this for both Hue and herself.
The feeling of her tears falling on his shirt was… Particular. In the fact that he hadn’t felt her cry on his shoulder, in the longest of times. In a way, he had missed it, missed comforting her in her times of need. What had he been doing all this time, honestly? His job had been for the last year, to take care of her. It was what he did best, but then something had broke, and he couldn’t do anything. Neither of them, could do anything.
Making out the sobbed words she spoke, one of his hands released from the fabric and slowly crawled up her back and neck, finding a nitch in her golden locks. His head nodding in agreement — they had nothing left here, after all. His sister was growing up, and he hadn’t seen her in months, and he needed to start his own life now as well. How was he ever going to become a police officer, if he continued to sit around like a bum?
"I know." Mumbling out from his lips, fingers clinging into the locks of her hair. "I know, Bianca.. I know. .. I don’t want this anymore either.. I really don’t…." His voice croaked, hating the image of them as nothing but a continuous rut. He wanted the fun back, the smiles back. He wanted the relationship, of where he had fallen in love with her, back.
Her parents were dead. Her friends might as well have been dead. She had nothing left here, hadn’t for a long time. She was so scared of losing the one thing she had. Now, he was agreeing that here wasn’t good? Her grip on Hue couldn’t be any tighter.
"I…think…I think I still want…" She whimpered, not wanting to say anything that would break them further. "I want…to study a different region…I want to start all over…please…I can’t do this anymore…They’re too close…" Even calling them ‘them’ hurt her. "Everything hurts here. I want to be happy again…with you…Please…"
Her entire body shook with her fear and sobs. She couldn’t take anymore, feelings were rushing back to her she blocked out for months, and she thought she was going to die right there in his arms from all the heartbreak she had held back for months.
It wasn’t just her whose smile dissipated in the moment of what she said. He should’ve looked at the date it said she had been registered as a professor for, but he was too overcome by her having accomplished it.
Still, he didn’t want to let her go — he hadn’t exactly embraced her in such a long time. They were so awkward, and hardly did anything else but a routine that felt like a rut. It wasn’t as if he was ever going to leave, he had promised her he’d stay. Even if everyone else abandoned them, he had promised her he would stay because he didn’t want to be alone either.
"Is that so?" He commented, not sure of what else to say. He didn’t want it.. To be awkward again — to follow the same rut that they couldn’t get out of. But, it was so hard for him to convey himself like that, seemingly, Bianca was the person he did it the most with though. Inhaling a deep breath, his fingers gripping the fabric of her shirt. ".. I’m really proud of you, Bianca."
Bianca could feel tears welling up for the first time in forever. Tears she hadn’t shed that should have been shed every day to help her recover. She tried to hold them back, but it was too much. Finally, she found her grip on Hue, hugging him tightly as she began to sob.
He was proud of her. Someone was proud of her for what she did, and some of the tears were happy tears, though that was only some. ”I don’t want to be here anymore.” She sobbed out into his shoulder. Bianca meant that in more than one way. She didn’t want this rut to continue, nor did she want to stay in this house much longer…but she knew she could never convince Hue to move on with her…
He wasn’t expecting to see her running up the stairs so when she did, his expression turned wide-eyed with interest. Keeping his eyes on the few steps until she would return, and when she did, and he watched the plastic card being dropped on the table, he was a bit astonished.
Setting his plate on the table next to her own, he reached out to pick it up — looking at first the name on the card. “Professor Bianca Coltello…” He mimicked what the card read. At first, he was still too astonished to think anything of it, but as he re-read it over and over, a bright smile overcame him.
"Bianca… This is great! How long have you had this?! I can’t believe you finally did it, you finally became a Professor like you wanted!!" He grinned brightly as he spoke, setting down the card and reaching over to pull her into a hug.
Hue was smiling, did she do something right? Was this really the right thing to do after so long? She couldn’t help the little smile that came over her at seeing his smile. It has been so long, and he wasn’t—
—Wait. Her smile disappeared when she realized he had asked how long she had had it. She had to tell him the truth. There were no lies between them. ”A few months…I’ve had it for a few months…”
And there went everything, the fleeting happiness she felt at seeing Hue smile was gone, and she was back to feeling nothing. Even though he was hugging her, she barely found the energy or mental capacity to hug him back.
There was never anything new when the two talked. He was busying himself with a bunch of Mareep, and she just.. Did her own thing. This conversation never changed.
”..I see.” His head slightly nodding as he took another bite of the meal. Was there really any possibility of changing the dynamic between them? He’d done it before, plenty of times.. But, he was so exhausted from it. Sometimes, it just felt like it was too much to try and change it. The outcome was the same, when he did. She ran away, and he had to chase her — despite him saying that he would always do it. Always run after her, he did want to be at a standstill. Which, was exactly where they were at.
But… The standstill was, unhappy. There was supposed to be happiness. So, where was it?
She wasn’t unhappy with the life they lived now, but she knew at any second Hue would leave her. Just like the others. There was nothing but her holding him here, and she had to make him miserable.
Bianca remembers him telling her to stop thinking like that, but that was a happier time. Back when she still had hope. Now she sits here with no parents, only two of her pokemon, her friends all abandoned her…She truely felt there was nothing left.
There was a small idea in her head. Something to change things for just one night. Wordlessly, she sat her plate down—only two bites into her dinner—and got up. Upstairs she disappeared, coming down not long afterwards and sitting back down.
She sat the small object that was in her hands on the table. A certificate that she had completed her training under Professor Juniper. That she was officially a professor herself.
…The only reason she did it was to see if she could get any reaction out of Hue. Anything at all. Because she still felt nothing where she should be proud.
Thought so. The words echoed in his head at her response to his question of eating, she rarely ever did unless he got her attention to do so. They really were never the same, since, well, everything. The distance they kept between them was.. Well, fear of abandonment on both sides.
As he watched her begin eating, he started cutting into his own steak, swallowing a bite before speaking up again. “..So, anything new?”
"No…" Bianca spoke with the same inflection as before, and it wasn’t a lie. Her license that she should have told Hue about a long time ago still sat in a corner of her room near a trash can. Something she should have been proud of and waving around after so many years of studying, just laying there.
She still wonders how Hue would react, if he knew. Knew that she still wanted to leave the region…Study new Pokemon outside of Unova…Though even though she told herself that was her wish, there wasn’t much of a feeling to it. She had given up on her studies when she got the license.
This was a daily routine with the two. One that she both wanted to break and wanted to keep. Afraid that if she did something else, anything else, Hue would leave her too.
Walking in the room, he had two plates in his hand. On each plate was a Salisbury Steak, with mashed potatos, and mixed veggies on the side. Settling into the couch, he placed Bianca’s plate on the table. Unsure if she really wanted it, or not.
"Have you eaten today?"
She hadn’t really noticed him coming into her space, but his voice did cause her to stir a little. Her thoughts lately had stayed so deep—the fighting, the pain…”No…”
The plate was retrieved, knowing that if she didn’t eat, Hue might worry about her, and she couldn’t lie to him and tell him that she was fine. He always knew.